So where do I start! After a rough childhood, moving across the world and back, I became a teen-mum with 19 and like every teen in that age, I had no vision of my future and was mentally a bit unstable. Which I really didn’t know at the time. Raising my first daughter on my own with no family behind my back, I’m glad I never gave up on myself, for my daughter and the life I wanted us to have. Well, but let’s start in the year 2018. Because telling you my whole life story would be too much for here. More important is, that I want to show you guys where I started and where I am now. So you can see that you don’t have to be stuck where you are right now forever. 

Ok. in 2018 I became a mum for the second time and as it should be, I was full of love and joy. But still I felt this pain inside of me that needed healing, but I had no idea where to start or go, I only knew that it had something to do with the person I loved! I didn’t even really know what problems I have and why my life is such a mess. After a chat with a friend, I made my first ever step out of my comfort zone and went to a spiritual healer. I never believed in healers or anything spiritual, because in my childhood I got pushed from one religion to the other. I was baptised I think 4 times, in 4 different religions, so as you can understand I had no trust in anything I couldn’t see or touch. But I thought “why not” I have nothing to lose. After my first session I was totally speechless, she knew things about me, she couldn’t possibly know, because I had told her nothing, so I was super excited to see her again. 

I started seeing spiritual healers regularly, or let’s say when I felt I needed it. Over the past years I had more than one depending on my problem and blocks. As I changed inside, I change the healer that suited my energy. Without knowing, most of my blocks and triggers are beliefs and imprints from my childhood. But seeing healers didn’t change or do all the work for me. I also had to work on myself and change my mindset, so I started to meditate. It helped me control my thoughts, align with my true self and energy. I started to look after my body, soul and mind. Meditating is for the mind like giving the body nutritious food, which meant a calm and healthy soul also depends on what we give our bodies, we reflect from the inside out. But also the other way around, what we feed our mind and soul reflects on our body. If our body is weak or sick, it’s our soul giving us a sign that something is not right. 

I started thinking about my life and future, what I want to achieve for my girls and me. Which was one of my biggest problems and beliefs. From a young age on, we get told to go to school, get good grades, find a job, have kids, build a house and that it’s the woman’s responsibility to keep the house clean, cook and watch the kids.  I thought that I had to please others, make them happy and live by their perspective. But I started to listen to my inner voice and interests, as I digged deep I found my passion and purpose of life. I love to travel, feel free and independent but also help others, see them smile and organise things. So I bumped into Eventmanagment and thought it would be the job for me. You will now think how can my passion and the belief that triggered me be so close to each other, well I’ll tell you all about that another time. But now as my youngest turned 2 1/2 years old I started working at an office as Event manager at the start I thought this is it. But life had a lesson for me, and I still had so much to learn. The job didn’t turn out to be what I hoped. It started to trigger me and make me physically and mentally ill. Don’t forget live only gives us what we can endure. So I met this amazing woman she started working at the same office, she turned out to be the exact person I needed to keep going. She taught me so much about believing in myself, dreaming big and that I was allowed to show up, shine big and bright. That it’s time to stop hiding and start saying “no” to things that don’t fit my energy.